Robbie Williams says he could easily have entered the Olympics for “self-loathing” and is still struggling with his natural desire to be morbidly obese.
The former drink and drug user, 48, added that his drug addiction had taken him to ‘far places’ and insisted his ego was not what some people think because it ended up being convinced that he couldn’t sing and that he hated his body.
He told The Sun on Friday evening (09.09.22) in an interview on the occasion of the release of his latest album “XV”, which celebrates 25 years as a solo singer: “Drugs took me to distant places and, contrary to popular belief, my ego is the opposite of ego.
“I hated myself and thought I couldn’t sing and looked like crap. If anyone thought I was wandering around with an inflated sense of smugness, it’s actually the opposite.
“If there are a lot of people saying, ‘You’re a ***, you start to think you are, even if you say, ‘But I’m not.’
“If there was an Olympics for self-hatred, I would represent my country.”
Robbie – clean and happier now in part thanks to his wife Ayda Field, 43, and their four children Teddy, nine, Charlie, seven, Colette, four and Beau, two – added that he was still struggling Constantly Against Her Weight: “I have lost weight, but it’s a constant struggle. Inside of me there is a giant person.
The singer, once dubbed “the fat dancer from Take That” by his former Britpop rival Noel Gallagher, added: “My whole being and my whole body wants me to go the opposite direction and be morbidly obese.
“Right now I’m eating less. It’s constant work and it’s not a natural way to be.
“For me, what’s normal is being twice that tall. Thanking God for vanity, and thanking God for my work, because if I wasn’t doing what I do for a living, I’d am afraid to think of what I would look like and what I would become.
“To me, it’s overweight and full of shame, and then you do something extreme to get to the weight that’s right for you.
“But then you get calories into your body to support what it needs to do, and then you get tired.
“I have an addictive nature that finds fault with sugar. I’ve never been able to maintain perfect adherence to abstinence from sugar and refined flour and all that.
“There is no balance – moderation does not exist.
“I don’t have the ability to make that happen. He’s either fat or skinny.